It All Runs Together

As I sit here it all runs together
What hurts
What helps
What works
And what is broken

When I think about it, it all runs together, it all becomes one mess of thought and fog.
I want to remember what it was like to have clarity of thought and no longer have conflict and chaos ruling my mind.

When does the battle end
When do I gain peace again
When do I get to have the control of my thoughts and emotions once more

Why do I only get to question
Why can’t I know

Pain is relative to numbness,

What should I feel
When should I act
When should I see
When should I stop and lay down

Why

--Christopher Welker
04.07.05