Fast

Fast, that’s how I go
Fast, that’s how I go

Fast, that’s how I feel
Fast, that’s how I feel

Fast, that’s how I live
Fast, that’s how I live

Fast, that’s how I go, that’s how I feel, that’s how I live. My life seems a blur, when I finally get to stop I am waiting to go again.

When do I get to stop? When do I get to slow down? What will I do when I finally can stop and take a normal pace…

Or is this to become the norm.

-Christopher Welker

Its Coming

I feel it coming, I don’t know what it, I just see it coming to take me. It’s dark and loaming. In my minds eye it looks like a giant wave of Darkness.

What it is I don’t know, what it will do I do not know, how it will feel… I don’t know

It makes my heart cower, and fill with darkness.

What it will do to me I don’t know, what it will make me I do not know, how it will make me feel…. I don’t know.

As I stand now I see two paths before me:
I embrace it
Or
I hold my ground
Ebb and Flo with it

With either choice I feel I will be left broken by that which is oncoming,
Weather this brokenness will be

For the better or the worse,


Remains to be seen.


-Christopher Welker

Suddenly

Suddenly I feel you holding me.
Suddenly I feel your joy embracing me.
Suddenly I feel your peace crashing upon my soul.
Suddenly I feel your hands reforming my heart.
Suddenly I feel your voice surrounding me.

Suddenly I feel you leading me in to a new life
Suddenly I feel you taking me out do the mire of my life
Suddenly I feel you brining me into your life.
Suddenly I feel you taking my mind back.
Suddenly I feel you sweeping my old life away.

Suddenly I feel your love again.
Suddenly I feel you’re with me again
Suddenly I feel that I am not so alone
Suddenly I feel that I can make it though the next hour

Suddenly I feel you.

God, oh my God, suddenly I feel that your no longer distant, suddenly I remember that you care, suddenly I feel your hand taking me to the life I once felt and to the life I will one day have again.
God I felt that you had left me and forgotten about me, sometime I still feel that you had. I miss you and your love and all that you had to do with my life, I miss feeling you in all I did.

God please take me back, do not make the person I was once, but the person you want me to become now.

-Christopher Welker

They Say You Love

They say You love. I feel only hate
They say You heal. I feel only hurt
They say You care. But yet Your care misses me,
They say You confort. I feel only disconfort

When all I feel about all they say is the opist, what is the problem, where is my fault that You don’t love me, You don’t heal me, You don’t care about me, or comfort me.

What have I done that You choose to look past me

-Christopher Welker

You See Not What I See

You see ugly pieces of wood. I see a beautiful tree.
You see a cruel way of punishment. I see a way I am not fit to die.
You see a human invention. I see Devine intervention
You see another piece of art. I see a new reason for art, life.
You see just a thing. I see something I would die for
You see something that would give you splinters if you take it up. I see something that would give you eternal life if you take it up.
You see just a piece of junk. I see the only way that I may see God
I see away that man can be forgiven of his sins.
I see God’s perfect plan.

I see the cross

-Christopher Welker
11.23.1998